Justin

So he brought me flowers. Not only that, he was happy to come and get me from work for the joy of getting to talk to me for the fifteen minuets it takes to get me home. I really, really think that I'm in love with him. I can't get him off of my mind, and he makes me feel so absolutly wonderful all the time. I've never dated someone so responcible and attentive.

He worries about all sorts of things. Many of them have to do with myself and our relationship. He wants to do everything with me, but says he fears what that can do to people. He does not ever want to take me for granted, or to have the trust issues that can spawn from constantly being with someone and then not being able to for whatever reason. This is due to a prior serious relationship that spaned several years. Sarah. I have a feeling that most of his odd concerns, the things that he worries about, when it comes to relationships, are her doing.

It makes me wonder how things will platue out. We have moved rather quickly. I have a big grin on my face while I think of thursday night. We made love. It was not the slow and passinate love making that I want from him, but I know that is on it's way. But what I am really in the dark about is where things go from here. I live with Erin at her Parents and cannot have him over for the night here, and he is rooming with his twenty year old brother at his parent's place. I guess though that it is going to be cool for me to stay the night sometimes.

That brings us to tomorrow. I have been invited over by his mother for dinner. And I guess she already like me. Same with his brother Alex, I called him and his friends newbs for playing Morowind on the X-box. I guess that makes me cool. His mom thinks I'm cool cause I am a care giver, and because Justin thinks I am. -dies- I mean this is a lot to live up to. And I have to wait all day for it. It's dinner, that means like sometime between five or seven. I have to make it all that way without going crazy. -bangs head against wall-